my unexpected spiritual shift from non dual to theistic

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I used to always fancy myself a very non-dual tantric viewpoint, you know, and I didn't believe in a creator god. I believed that essentially I could be God. And I think that that is that is the that is the philosophy adida non-duality.

It is but it's not the only one. And I don't subscribe to that anymore because at some point I found myself down on my knees and ish pranidana took on new meaning. when you're when you realize that you can't do it on your own and you're not God that there's something bigger than you then I think there's a certain humble humble sensibility a humble place that you have where you don't see yourself as the highest there's something higher than you and for me I don't think that everybody has to take that view and not everybody does but I certainly have come to that place where I feel much more um what I would have called religious or like theistic I really do believe in God and I've been praying in New ways.